In June of 2017, I was desperate. I struggled with near-constant migraines and hyperthyroidism, and the doctors told me there was nothing they could do for me. It was June for crying out loud, and the only time I left my house was to go to the doctor. I had 4 children...I couldn't live like this!
I was willing to grasp at any straw for physical healing, and the prior years showed it. I had spent thousands of dollars on medical care, special glasses, eye surgery, colonoscopy, hospital stays, and my health only continued to spiral downwards.
Finally, I remembered someone a friend of mine told me about, but doubts crept in...how could anyone help me? I had seen neurologists and endocrinologists, and they certainly hadn't helped.
I would have told you that all my problems were physical. Even my family doctor had told me once, "I know this isn't in your head."
I was about to learn something incredibly profound. Your mental and emotional wellbeing is tied to your physical health. WOW!! That took me a bit to wrap my head around, but I was in a place where I had nothing to lose. Following directions, I was feeling so much lighter by the time I walked out of the office. I was able to drive to and cheer on my daughter at her softball game the very next week!
So this is how I started on my journey to physical healing, and in the process I happened upon an even bigger journey of mental, emotional, and spiritual growth and healing!
The craziest thing now is that I am so grateful for my migraines, chronic illness, depression and anxiety, because without them I wouldn't have the spiritual relationship with God I have now and I wouldn't be in a position to help others find healing.
When I was growing up my biggest dream was getting married, having kids, and having a job where I could be outside or work with animals, and all of those dreams came true. I got married when I was almost 20 years old and had 4 kids. We invested in some dairy goats when my oldest son had a sensitivity to milk so, basically, all my dreams came true.
One thing I never really thought about, although I should have, was my health. When I was younger, I was relatively healthy but when I was 17 I started getting migraines and at 19 they started to get more frequent. At age 22, I had my gallbladder removed, and after that there were patterns of chronic and acute illnesses, sinusitis, appendix, acoustic schwannoma, thymectomy, sinus surgery, colonoscopies, hyperthyroidism, & kidney stones.
By the time I was 40, I was unable to work since I was experiencing almost constant migraines and then I developed hyperthyroidism, and the doctors told me it should resolve on its own. WHAT?? This was the lowest time in my life. I thought all the doors had been slammed in my face. Basically, I was on the same path as my mom who died at 58 of colon cancer. The only difference was my health at 40 was way worse than her health was at 40...yikes!
Yep, I had hit my lowest point. What options did I have? The doctors basically had done all they could do, and nothing they did had any kind of lasting effect. I felt so alone, useless, unworthy, and forgotten. That's when I found my miracle.
I met someone who turned my whole way of thinking around. She encouraged me to repeat positive phrases a few times a day to myself like "I'm capable and lovable." This was at a time when I didn't feel capable or lovable at all. She helped me find supplements that I needed, and most of all she believed that I had BIG things ahead of me. Sooo if you are at a low point in your life, look for your miracle. Don't give up hope. It's coming!!
Have you ever had a migraine so excruciatingly painful with the feeling of a knife above your eye going through your forehead that ice, pressure, and not even drugs can take the edge off and it lasts for days? The absolute worst thing that could happen in that moment would be your husband calling you to tell you that you need to pick up your son at preschool. I can't tell you how many times this happened to me.
What thoughts go through your head during this time? I'm not enough. I don't even feel capable of picking up my kid at school. I'm a terrible mom. My family would be better off without me. Why can't the doctors figure out what is causing this? Why is God doing this to me? What have I done to deserve this? None of these are the TRUTH!
One thing it took me years and years (40 to be exact) to figure out is what you focus on you get more of. So the more you focus on why me, poor me, I can't, I'm not capable of, and lived in fear of getting a migraine away from home, that is exactly what you will get. Hear my heart, this is not your fault. This is all that you have known until now. I, myself, continued in this awful cycle with things getting progressively worse and worse until I was unable to work and didn't want to leave my house for much of anything.
Once I stepped out of the norm of seeing doctors and specialists who treated my symptoms and helped me the best they knew how, I was finally able to find improvement.
Did this solve all of my problems? No, but it started me on the right path. I still watch what I eat very closely. I avoid dyes, chemicals, and processed foods as best I can, and my toxic load is way down. I also watch for emotional triggers. This is not something to take lightly. Read this book to read more about this subject: Feelings Buried Alive Never Die, by Karol K. Truman.
Instead of saying, "I can't, I'm a terrible mom, this is never going to end." I started saying, "I'm capable and lovable." "Good health is a natural part of my life." "I am worthy." "I am enough." Guard your mind closely. Life and Death is in the power of the tongue, and you will eat the fruit of it.
You are beautiful. You are enough. God has a special plan for you and your life.
What have you learned from having migraines? What are they trying to tell you? These questions are so important to ask yourself. If you are at a point where your brain is so foggy and you are in so much pain, that you need help scroll down and click on Contact Me! We are not meant to do this alone.
